My Obsession......

So I have this some-what-weird thing for the name James......idk why exactly but I just think it's like a manliest name.  I always told my friends that the moment I meet and attractive male names James, I'm going to pounce haha.  Well, that moment is now! I'm just starting college and I've spotted my James =P

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So I think it has officially hit me that, shit, I'm starting the next chapter in my life.  Today high school starts for my lil bro and I'm for once not going nor am I in college yet.  I have 27 days until I start.  I better enjoy it while I can.  My book is comming along pretty well right now.  I've got a good solid 28 pages an my story isn't nearly half way finished.  Well, TOAST to my next chapter in life!

Idea!!

So I always thought I should, and I've decided. I'm going to write a romance novel. Wish me luck!! =)

Pics of me & Family in Florida!

Bros & I

Mitchell  &  William

  Me in the car!

Family @ Sincletons Seafood Shack

William in the car.... Bros on the beach

           My 1st Tat! 

Jet Lag for William!      Angry mama!

Florida!

So like I promised, here's some pics I took from my first trip seeing the ocean!!

My Hotel

 Jelly fish on beach in the dark!

Sonic with a palm tree!

Florida baby!

So today begins my journey to Jacksonville, Fl.  I've never been on a plane, seen the ocean, and in this case I've never been in a huricane.  But I will for sure make sure I keep my blog updated with pics of my trip! Hopefully I don't have crappy weather.  Wish me luck!!

NO SENSE

I just can't seem to wrap my head around the thought that I've never had a actual, legit boyfriend. I've had one guy I've called my boyfriend but it lasted one week and we never did anything so I don't feel like he counts. I'm 18 years old, a HS graduate, and heading to college in October and I've never had a boyfriend. I'm starting to think guys aren't even interested in me.  I'm not gay, I don't think I send off a gay vibe. But I just don't know.  Maybe they are just too scared to go out with a fat chick. WTF! Oh yeah and I've never been kissed or kissed anyone beside my parents.  I feel like something's wrong with me but my friends ALWAYS say that guys just don't know how amazing I am. 

They always tell me that I'm prettier than them and I'll make the best wife yet they all have had boyfriends. My head is so puzzled that I'm going crazy.  I feel like I've spent the past 18 yrs. perfecting that "perfect girfriend" image that now I feel like I'm nothing like those girls.  I'm just one of the guys.  I grew up all around boys, I had two twin girl cousins my age when I was little until my uncle got a divorce and I would up with all guy cousins again. Guys are just easier and more fun to hangout with.  I can't help that. This makes NO SENSE.